We have moved out, I am trying not to hold on. The holidays is presenting a problem of Christmases past- family traditions, memorable decorations, and time spent with loved ones. Last year, Abby in all of her 6 years of wisdom announced that "Santa has never disappointed me, and neither has MOM AND DAD." No pressure right? I am a Christmas hoarder, I love Christmas decorations, Christmas trees, Christmas music, Christmas parties (and Hanukkah, too), Christmas cards and letters, Christmas movies, the list is endless.
When we moved out I gave away one of my favorite fake Christmas trees, the one that is used to display holiday card from friends and family- letting go. I brought with me 2 trees each with their own significance and box full of memories- holding on. For a woman who used to have a 4000 square foot house that would display 7 trees during the holidays, 2 trees is quite the downgrade.
Today's struggle is with holding on or letting go. He brought over 20 boxes of Christmas decorations yesterday. I want nothing to do with any of it really, I am ready to let go. But then there are the kids to think about, the expectation of Christmas is pretty high. So what do I hold on to? My brain does not even want to consider any of it, it can all go back. And then I talk to him- "what am I going to do with 17 boxes of Christmas decorations?" he says. Sigh- holding on. Each item I picked holds some memory, a nugget of the past where we were happy, some more significant than others. What do I do with them hold on or let go? I wish I knew the answer, none of this is easy, but being that this is Christmas it makes it that much harder.